For now I choose...

Late one night I went to sleep,
After staying in bed for some light read,
Body was tired but mind was wandering,
Transported myself to a different realm

Ocean was vast and calm as could be,
Yet I know it was unreal,
Saw myself beside a lady,
Like a third person's view making it so surreal

We stood in silence looking out to sea,
Watching the waves roll and sweeping up ashore,
I breathed in slowly and slightly shuddered,
Not so from the cold but more from trepidation

I know the lady and so does she me,
We used to speak and understood aplenty,
Now she's distant and her mind is made up,
I have been through this and it's on replay

She turned to me with glistening eyes,
I gulped in fear my stomach churned,
I had felt grateful that she taught me to swim,
But now the moment has come to end

I saw myself sinking as she stepped away,
The strong solid casting has begun to fray,
"I look forward and yet I fear."
"Perhaps inexperience; keep cool and you will not falter"

And so she moved out of my sight,
Like a loose knot not properly tied,
I floated and wobbled in the cold dark waters,
Inching my way and grappling about

My instincts are putting me on guard,
I know I will be tested and not just once,
God, grant me the wisdom & perseverance,
Batterings can heal but not when battened.

From the time I know till I finally realized,
Remains one question that stayed on my mind,
It's off my chest now and still uncertain,
Until further notice, it's 45.


P.S Ignorance is bliss. =)